“Dear God, just let it all work out.”
If there was a microphone up to my head regarding money before I started with Handel, that’s what you would have heard. And if you had seen me, you would have seen a sweaty, agitated woman with her eyes squeezed shut and her fingers crossed.
How is it that I was capable of counting my calories and bringing awareness to what I put in my mouth but I couldn’t seem to stay present to what was coming in and out of my wallet? It was as if the dollar bills had wings and would just “fly out of my purse.” (Yup, I had been known to use those exact words!) But oh, it gets worse. I must confess that I was so willing to avoid dealing that I would shred my bank statements before even looking at them.
Now, luckily, in my case, this did NOT lead to financial ruin. Instead it just led to a low-grade sense of panic all the time. At Handel, we teach that wherever you are suffering there are lies and bad theories.
My biggest lie that I repeatedly told myself was: “I don’t want to know!”
That just wasn’t true. I was dying to know, but I told myself that I was just too scared. When you experience a negative feeling (like fear), you can be sure there are negative theories behind it, and those theories deserve to be debunked.
Here were some of mine:
If you like money, you’re gross.
Money is an evil form of power.
Caring about money is just selfish.
Making money is hard and involves suffering.
With coaching, I changed my theories to some new ones:
Money is energy.
It can be used.
It can be played with.
It can even be enjoyed.
You can build with it.
It can be used to better the world.
Armed with new theories, I had new feelings and then was able to take new actions. I started actually opening my bank statements. I started caring and even loving to manage my money. Lo and behold, my bank account grew bigger and bigger with each action. Ahhh now that’s better!
Peace and Money,